Today was one of those days for me.
In addition to that, today, I realized that I am unable to keep up with the hospital requirements that allow me to be a per diem nurse at Hershey Medical Center. A small piece of my heart has broken. For those of you who know me, are well aware that I absolutely LOVE Hershey Children's Hospital.
Penn State Hershey is where I started my nursing career after graduating from Thomas Jefferson University in 2009. It was a divine work of God that I ended up working in Hershey because it was the last place I wanted to be. With that being said, my job there turned out to be the biggest blessing of my life and career. God is good like that, and in this moment I am reminded that He knows infinitely more than I do, and His plan for my life is better than anything I could ever dream up, even if I protest down the road He leads.
I have loved every minute of working in Hershey - good and bad; every miracle, every smile, and every tear. This is the place where I learned how to be a nurse. I was shaped and molded into the nurse that I am today. I am forever grateful to all who had a hand in that process because I wouldn't be where I am today, or who I am without them.
Over the last few months I've been journeying. I might even be inclined to say the journey I'm on is one I wish I could skip. I am in the midst of so much change and transition at this point of my life and to be quite honest, it is not easy. Sometimes I ache in places I didn't even know existed inside me.
After chatting and praying with a dear friend of mine today she shared this with me...
"Journeying through soul agony will bring you to valleys of truest peace."
I can only cling to this hope and rest in the fact that Jesus is the only source of true peace. While my heart is heavy, if I choose to look deeper, keeping my mind on Jesus, through the journey I will find peace I hadn't known before.
I can't help but think of that song I used to sing at camp...
"Walkin' and talkin' with my mind stayin' on Jesus..." (Repeat)
I am also reminded of this verse...
"You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you,
because he trusts in You."
Isaiah 26:3
At the end of the day it's not about how fast we get somewhere, it is about our journey.
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I will miss working here - more than I can put to words.
I sent out my farewell email to all of my coworkers at the hospital. I have been blessed to receive a few emails that have made me feel genuinely good inside.
For this I am grateful.
I took my statistics exam wearing my new specs and my new boots.
Still awaiting results.
While I'm waiting... I choose to worship, serve, praise, and trust.
God is on the throne!
Hallelujah!
Until next time, keep shining for Jesus.
