I had a "God Moment". Have you ever had one of those? God shows up in some way, in some place, or through some person; you know without a doubt that He showed up and it was specifically meant for you?
This happened to me.
It was Friday morning at GYC (Generation. Youth. Christ.), and I was slow to roll out of bed - hitting the snooze button one too many times. I skipped breakfast, the thought of eating food made me nauseated. I slowly pulled it together putting one foot in front of the other making my way to the convention center. Thankfully, my friends had saved me a seat in the auditorium. I sat through the meeting distracted, the minutes passed slowly. Everything seemed to go in one ear and out of the other. It was hard to focus. My vision and purpose seemed so clouded. My thoughts screamed, "Lord, what am I doing here...?" Silence. Disappointment radiated from every fiber of my body. The thought of heading back to the hotel to sleep was so tempting.
At the close of the morning devotion, I thought I'd quickly make my way to the exit and dash for the hotel.
Nope.
You see I had been attending Sebastien Braxton's seminar session since the beginning. The messages were amazing, but I thought I'd be okay to miss one. Then I felt a tug at my heart and my arm that urged me to go. God tugging at my heart and Tia tugging at my arm.
"Great," I thought, "So much for sneaking out quietly."
As I made my way down to the seminar room, I was silently praying that I wouldn't waste another hour being distracted with racing thoughts in a lecture room. "Lord, you've got to help me out here," I screamed from the deepest part of my soul.
Then Sebastien preached this sermon. . .
Cross-Check: Cross Fire
"God, why didn't you come through for me?" Quietly from the core part of my being the next phrase resonated, "I didn't come through for you in this way because I'm coming through for you in a better way later."
Mercy.
"There is someone here this morning...," Sebastien spoke from the pulpit. "Yes, it's me," my thoughts shouted.
Go up to the top of Pisgah, and lift your eyes toward the west, the north, the south, and the east; behold it with your eyes, for you shall not cross over this Jordan.
Deuteronomy 3:27
Thank you God for showing up. Showing up exactly at the moment I needed you the most.
We all go through disappointments, struggles, and challenges. Everything happens with a more intricate design/plan than anything we could have dreamed up on our own. Every little or big thing that happens teaches us something about God, ourselves and others. The reason -- we may not always understand immediately -- but God always reveals it some where along the road. The key is to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
"Sometimes God has to disappoint us in one way so that He can surprise us in another way later."
"Here we are crying over spilled milk that God can clean up."
God is always there to help us pick ourselves back up. We have to keep our faith and trust in Him, and He will guide our path to the exact place we need to be. After all, He knows our hearts the best.
I pray you enjoy this sermon as much as I did.
Until next time!
